Chapter 1168: Don't Want to Suffer for a Lifetime

ad conversation" 。They had no chance at all, and she didn't want Qiao Shunchen to try. 。I don't want to cause Qiao Shunchen any unnecessary trouble. 。It's still the same sentence, the same thought. As...Qin Jingwen heard Qiao Shunchen's answer and smiled wryly. 。To be precise, we've never had a chance to drink alone. It's either been interrupted or we've been constantly harassed by phone calls. 。Finally, we made it through everything, and the child doesn't even give us a chance. 。"

Qin Jingwen thought about it and felt a pang of sadness, even though she wasn't drunk, the sourness made her want to cry. >>> 。She remembers things clearly that Qiao Shunchen doesn't. 。 。It's been a long and difficult journey to get here, finally together without obstacles, yet some don't cherish it, while others begin to forget. 。< If only I had known this would happen, I wouldn't have gotten together in the first place. Then our child wouldn't be worrying all day long. > 。"It's good that all those past things are over, and now we can sneak out secretly to meet." 。"As long as you want to drink, I'll keep you company." 。Joe Shunchen didn't dare to bring up past matters. Every time he did, he felt even more guilty towards Qin Jingwen. 。He swore to Qin Jingwen that he would make amends, but the reality wasn't as good as his words. He didn't see how happy Qin Jingwen was. 。"I hope so." 。"Come on, you don't have a headache from drinking anymore, let's have a drink together. " 。Qin Jingwen raised her cup, but forced a smile. The pain in her heart could only be felt by this fiery liquor. 。Her wish, in fact, was a kind of expectation, and also a kind of uncertainty. 。

I hope they won't encounter any more obstacles in the future, but I have no certainty about that.

Let's have a sip together, slowly and don't rush. 。" Joe Shun-chen accompanied Qin Jingwen, took a sip of wine, put down the cup and helped Qin Jingwen clip vegetables, and peeled garlic for her. 。You said that eating barbecue without garlic is soulless. 。< I've peeled it for you > 。"Thank you!" Qin Jingwen's thanks were not just for peeling the garlic, but also for Qiao Shunchen remembering her few words and one of her habits. 。"Eat more, you must be starving." 。“Be careful not to let Qin Jingwen get hungry,” Qiao Shunchen reminded. 。"You eat some too, there's so much I can't finish by myself." 。" Qin Jingwen also cared about Qiao Shunchen, hoping that Qiao Shunchen would always be like he is now, only guarding her and only caring about her. 。Joe Shun-chen didn't respond to Qin Jingwen, his mind racing on how to say what he wanted to say and how to explain it so that Qin Jingwen wouldn't be angry. 。But he never said anything, afraid that it might ruin Qin Jingwen's appetite. 。Thus, the two people still had a pretty harmonious barbecue this time. 。Although Qin Jingwen also had a lot she wanted to say, she successfully held back. 。After the night snack, the driver sent Qin Jingwen and Qiao Shunchen back home. 。The car was parked in the parking space outside the gate, and the driver then left. 。After getting out of the car, Qin Jingwen wanted to go home directly, but Qiao Shunchen stopped her. 。The air is very comfortable tonight, let's go for a walk. 。“I’m a bit dizzy, can I go home” Qin Jingwen was too tired, and the alcohol was also catching up to her. At this moment, she didn't have the mood or energy to accompany Qiao Shunchen for a walk..."Just for a while, it's okay" 。At this point, Qiao Shunchen had already walked to Qin Jingwen's side and taken her hand. 。"Just a moment, I have something to tell you." 。" Qiao Shunchen said that he pulled Qin Jingwen's hand and walked towards the nearby park. 。Under the lamppost beside a tree-lined path, Qiao Shunchen held Qin Jingwen's hand, feeling particularly warm and happy. 。He enjoyed this feeling, the kind that made him want to give up everything else and just keep his beloved wife and children. 。“Isn’t there something you want to say” 。Qin Jingwen spoke, breaking the silence. 。Although she is enjoying the current ease, she doesn't know when she can go home to sleep. 。Okay, I'll say it right away. 。" Warmly, actually I have hidden some things from you 。Today I want to be clear with you, and tell you everything I've been hiding. 。Jo Shun-chen wasn't hesitating. The current opportunity was already very suitable. If he didn't speak up, Qin Jingwen's heart would continue to suffer. 。"There's no need, you have your reasons for wanting to hide it..." "There is a need, hiding it makes me feel uncomfortable..." 。"His heart wasn't feeling well, it was true. From concealing it to now, Qiao Shunchen always felt indebted, he even dared not look into Qin Jingwen's clear and bright eyes. 。Qin Jingwen remained silent. His silence made him uncomfortable, but had he ever considered how agonizing it was for her 。"Wenwen, the first time I received a treatment from Kodan alone was something I told Kodan not to tell you." 。I want to ask Coach, what do I feel about that girl 。"I'm afraid if you knew about this, you would be unhappy, and I'm worried it would give you too much to think about, so I kept it from you. " 。"I'm sorry, I didn't greet you first just now. In the future...""How did Kou Dan diagnose your feelings for that girl"Qin Jingwen knew Qiao Shunchen was going to make a promise again, so she interrupted him. 。His assurances meant nothing to Qin Jingwen, and held no weight for him either. Therefore, they were nothing more than a sarcastic jab. 。He said I liked that girl, at least it should be a crush. 。This is the time when Qiao Shunchen should just be honest. 。However, such honesty can be avoided because it is the most hurtful. 。Although Qin Jingwen had already guessed this possibility, hearing it from Qiao Shunchen's mouth was still like a bone-chiseling knife. 。Then

“What did Kou Dan tell you”

Qin Jingwen didn't continue her previous words, but just wondered why Qiao Shunchen suddenly explained.

“Yeah, she told me " 。Jo Shun-chen continued to admit 。"If she doesn't say anything, will you still explain it to me"This was Qin Jingwen's biggest concern. If Kou Dan didn't speak up, Qiao Shunchen would never realize she already knew about this, and he would never explain it to her. 。That is to say, he wanted to conceal it for his whole life, but since it was exposed, he had to explain it out of necessity. What's the point anymore 。“I… might not explain, or I might.” 。" Qiao Shunchen wasn't sure how he would feel, only that afterward he felt especially indebted to Qin Jingwen. 。Then there's no need to explain, just keep it hidden if you want to, my feelings don't matter. 。Qin Jingwen could no longer think of a better way to deal with Qiao Shunchen's helplessness. 。She seemed to feel that such an explanation was like stabbing a wound that hadn't yet healed. 。Since it's not from the heart, since it's forced, then it can be ignored. 。“Go home, I want to sleep.” 。Qin Jingwen thought that having a drink would help her relax, but she hadn't relaxed at all yet. Instead, during one particularly frustrating time... 。

"Wenwen, I'm sorry"

Just as Qin Jingwen was about to turn and leave, Qiao Shunchen pulled her back with a sudden force and held her in his arms. 。The moment Qin Jingwen turned around, he saw the disappointment in her eyes, saw the giving up in them. 。 Qiao Shunchen most didn't want to see was Qin Jingwen like this. 。“I’m sorry, I didn’t do well enough. I will definitely try harder next time.” 。Please hold on a little longer, don't give up on me. 。You should love life and be full of hope for me as well. 。"I can't leave me, can't be disappointed in me " 。"No matter what you saw, or heard, feel free to ask me when you get home." 。This is your right, you can interfere with anything I do. 。"

Qiao Shunchen said sadly, he was really scared, very scared, afraid to the point of trembling.

If Qin Jingwen leaves without a trace, what can he hold onto to go on What can he use to mend his broken heart 。"I promise you today, I'll get rid of that phone with the photos. I'll give the order, and from now on, we won't look for her anymore." 。including my second uncle's matter, I also gave up on not clinging to it 。We got married, and we lived a happy life. 。There will be nothing more that happens, we can grow old together, life after life. 。Joe Shun-chen was very excited, but what he said came from the heart. 。Although such a promise is difficult to keep, he believes he can persevere for Qin Jingwen. 。Such words truly touched Qin Jingwen, who was drunk. She was so moved that tears streamed down her face. 。Just take a moment to think about it, and you'll realize that Qiao Shunchen is incapable of doing so. 。Qin Jingwen was very calm at this time, and she thought very clearly. 。She didn't push away Qiao Shunchen, instead, she opened her arms to embrace him. 。Never give up, keep searching. 。I admit that your secrecy hurts and disappoints me. I also admit that every time you mention her in front of me, my heart aches. 。I also have to admit, every time you go after her recklessly, I get angry and hurt. 。But all of this is temporary, and it can pass. 。Qin Jingwen also frankly admitted to Qiao Shunchen for the first time, acknowledging all her thoughts in front of him. 。Although she knew presenting herself like this to Qiao Shunchen was a kind of humiliation, she just wanted to say it out loud. This way, she could live up to Qiao Shunchen's promises. 。If you give up, my pain will last a lifetime. 。As long as you go on a business trip, I'll think you're going to see that girl. As long as you're not happy, I'll think you're thinking about that girl. 。I know it's wrong and narrow-minded of me to think this way, but I can't help it. 。I will be tormented by these thoughts of mine for a lifetime. Once we collapse, we will quarrel and it will severely affect our relationship. 。"Go find it, if you find it, I can live in peace and you can focus on your work and family." 。" That's Qin Jingwen's most honest thought. In her view, it's better to suffer for a while than to be tormented for a lifetime. 。Although making this decision was painful for her, things are finally better now that it's been resolved. 。“Warm…” Qiao Shunchen felt even more awkward facing Qin Jingwen’s words. 。It's actually him who is being narrow-minded. He only cares about his own feelings and ignores Qin Jingwen's emotions. 。"Go find it, if you don't find it you won't be able to solve it and you'll regret it." 。" Qin Jingwen reaffirmed her thoughts, it was still the same sentence: she couldn't help Qiao Shunchen, but she also couldn't let her own influence affect Qiao Shunchen's life trajectory. 。Perhaps Qiao Shunchen and that girl were truly meant to be, perhaps they were the very picture of a love that would last until old age. 。If Qin Jingwen interferes in the middle, that would be against the arrangement of fate. 。She is not that selfish. She is kind to everyone and even more generous to Qiao Shunchen. 。Although Qiao Shunchen had just said those impassioned words and made an unprecedented determination, Qin Jingwen's words still touched him. 。Qin Jingwen was right, and she understood his feelings. 。Not finding this girl, this is his lifelong regret. 。

If Qin Jingwen found this girl, she would forever suspect his every motive.

A relationship without trust can't last long. 。. 。"Sun Xu, you and General Qiao... your General Qiao has a big heart, he's thinking about many people..." 。And I, being outside his heart, the Qiao family treated me as a tumor, a kind that must be r...