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carpets, beige sofas, beautiful crystal chandeliers, and vintage furniture. Everywhere exudes elegance yet also reveals warmth that doesn't match his overall demeanor at all.She looked around but cou...A Sub替身前妻 The 2nd Volume: Steady Heartbeats 665
February 19, 2015, clear weather.
The weather in Riyadh is truly annoying; it's hot all year round. On the street, I witnessed two policemen being rude to a woman driver. After returning home to change into short sleeves and a short skirt, I deliberately made a spectacle of myself, attracting them to chase me for an entire morning while hearing sirens blaring everywhere. My mood was incredibly good.
I drove alone to the beach. Every time I see the sea, I think of Hailan. If Hailan were still alive, perhaps I would have ended my love for Kaka long ago; I wouldn't compete with my sister over a man.
Thinking of Hailan naturally brings back memories of my nemesis.
I've never understood why I fell in love with him. For questions that remain unanswered, I usually don't dwell on them again.
A month has passed since he left; he's been avoiding me sincerely and hasn't given any information about himself. I miss him so much. Is he alright on the Special Forces Island Is he suffering
In my world, there is only this one person in my eyes and heart.
I think I'm sick.
But I willingly remain sick like this forever.
March 17, 2015
Kaka, Kaka, Kaka...
I am not only ill but also mad.
In the whole world, I recognize and think of only one person.
April 17, 2015
Today in Arabia, I met a handsome guy. The boys here always have an appealing appearance. He said he liked me and asked what he liked about me; he replied that it was my body.
I instantly became furious and wanted to shoot him.
Upon reflection, liking someone's body implies possession, and that counts as love too. Besides, I don't like him loving my soul; so what if he loves my body
I am young, beautiful, and in great shape; it’s perfectly normal for him to fancy my figure.
The only person who truly admires my soul is the one who not only doesn’t appreciate my soul but also detests my body. That's what makes me sad.
Yes, I believe these thoughts touched upon something within me—I am unpredictable when it comes to matters of love and romance. One moment, I find him vulgar and shallow; the next second, I think he is refreshingly genuine.
I despise Kaka’s pretentiousness; he always wears a smile on his face, so I particularly like men who rarely smile. It seems that I may have some psychological issues.
I tried dating him but found it exhausting—I had no idea what to talk about with him. After just three days, my interest waned completely.
And then I left without a word.
May 17th, 2015
I did something stupid today.
A very stupid thing.
Mum and Dad went on a trip; knowing that Uncle Chu Li and Aunt Rong Yan were not at home, I snuck into Kaka's house and slept in his room.
This is the dumbest thing I’ve ever done. It was exciting yet foolish to sleep in his bed where there’s the scent of him everywhere, his presence lingering.
It’s a place that belongs only to Kaka, and here I am sleeping on his bed.
I have no friends to confide in; holding onto Kaka's photo all night long, talking nonsense until I dozed off.
The tutor taught me badly; it’s the puberty period, and I deeply love an opposite sex.
My hormones are raging, feeling excited every day.
The last thought before falling asleep was...
This place belongs to Kaka, someday I will do AI with Kaka here.
May 18, 2015
The first time I woke up in Kaka's bedroom felt great; I didn't want to leave all day long.
I accidentally knocked over Kaka's pen holder and a pen fell into the drawer. I saw an album there, an album that belongs to Hailan and Kaka. The photo album was thick, full of pictures of Hailan and Kaka.
There were photos from when Hailan was just born until her teenage years; every single picture showed her smiling beautifully. As I looked at the photos, I couldn't help but feel a tiny bit jealous...
A golden youth and jade maiden, an enviable couple.
I can't help but wonder when my photo album will be by Kaka's bedside
Hailan, Hailan, shall we exchange roles in the next life
Let me be his fiancée.
June 17, 2015
I killed someone yesterday, Kaka, I'm not feeling well today.
...
July 27, 2015
Moxiao Bai came running over to tell me that Kaka is coming back this month. I was so happy that I jumped up and down. He's finally going to come back; I'm truly delighted.
Kaka, do you know
I'm very happy because I can see you again.
The feelings of a secret admirer are bitter-sweet; I’m addicted, forever unable to break free from this addiction.
Yesterday while reading a book, I came across a sentence: Thank the heavens that in my most beautiful years of life, I once met you.
This sentence resonated with me deeply; I read it over and over again.
In the days since I knew you, they have all been my beautiful years.
August 3, 2015.
Everyone says that you are coming back. Aunt Rongyan also said that you would return. Why haven't you come back yet It's already been six days; I am counting the days waiting for your return.
So annoying, so annoying, so annoying...
I don't have Mama's flair to wait for anyone瀟灑地為誰等待，因為她很幸運，有爸爸一直在追隨著她。她無需回頭，也無需等任何人。即使她不回頭，爸爸也會拚命去追趕。
What about you
If I do not wait, will you chase after me
Oh, right, you rejected me.
So unpleasant.
September 20, 2015.
You finally returned. Thank the heavens that I took a plane to London, only to hear that as soon as you returned, you flew off to the Middle East on a mission.
You work in intelligence now.
Just like I thought; with your meticulous mind, it's most suitable for you to be in intelligence.
I won't disturb you. Once you are settled, I will come find you.till feels a bitter pain in her heart. He was her most beautiful first love... no, it should be considered a one-sided infatuation; she had placed all her best and purest emotions on him.But it was sh...