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She was in pain in his arms, and Kaka held her silently, repeatedly kissing her hair and soothing the injured Wushuang with words. In the end, he made her cry.

This is my fault; I shouldn't have let you cry.

Wushuang, I'm sorry, but the one who should really be saying 'sorry' is me, not you. You haven't wronged anyone and don't need to apologize to me.

I've been hurting you for all these years because of my selfishness, making you suffer so much pain.

He wiped away her tears, "Don't cry, don't make it hurt more."

"You deserve it, I want you to feel the pain," Wushuang choked out. Her heart ached too; she looked up at him with tearful eyes, "Kaka, be honest with me, what do you really want"

Kaka hesitated for a moment, unsure how to respond to Wushuang. She held his hand tightly, her gaze clear and sincere, "Kaka, no matter what your answer is, I won't blame you. I will accept everything just as we did before. If you want me to ignore you, I will do so without hesitation. I promise, if you tell me once, I'll never see you again this lifetime, considering us fatefully unsuited. I was planning on ignoring you anyway; these many years have been exhausting for me too. I thought that the time and consideration I gave you were enough, and that you had also given it much thought. Now there are no more secrets between us, nothing hidden from each other. Therefore, I sincerely ask you again, Kaka, what do you really want What can I do to make things easier for you"

She did not intend to pressure Kaka into a decision but sometimes she couldn't ignore certain aspects of their relationship, especially when it came to emotions.

She was braver than him; she understood more clearly what the emotional knot between them was. Now that everything was laid bare in front of him, whether he chose to take or leave her, she would not blame him.

After all these years, Kaka has endured so much pain for him.

If she were an ordinary person, she would have been scared and run away long ago. Yet, he still maintains this ambiguous relationship with her. She is already content and dares not ask for more, fearing that her greediness will strip away the little happiness she has left.

Kaka was stunned by Wu Shuang's courage to bring up their issues once again. What could be going through his mind Why does he remain so determined despite being unable to provide her with the happiness she desires

Wu Shuang smiled faintly and said calmly, "The concerns you have about me are not a problem for me at all; I don’t care. Even if you were to die tomorrow, I would still be willing to stay by your side and find joy in it. Kaka, have you ever considered that after all these years of treating me so harshly, should something happen to you one day, who will ease the pain in my heart I might think you don’t love me; you’ll leave this world with my love for you unreciprocated. I may never find happiness again, even if I marry someone else and live a mundane life. Have you thought about how I would feel if I didn’t know your true feelings until the very end Wouldn’t it be better like this now Although your heart is artificial, with proper care, it’s no different from that of a normal person. Eleven years ago, when you believed you had little time left and dared not promise me anything, look at us today—I am still here by your side after all these years. From the age of fifteen, I have chased after you for over ten years. How many decades do we have together In this world, how many couples or lovers can enjoy a happy life for such a long time Even if you aren’t long-lived, every moment you spend with me is precious. After your passing, even as a single person, I will live on for you, exploring all the sights you never got to see. Why did you conceal this from me Instead of worrying about my well-being, shouldn't you have made sure that I was happy and content Over these past ten years, am I truly at peace If only you had told me earlier how much you loved me, those beautiful years would have been even more meaningful. But now it’s all ruined by your selfishness in disregarding my feelings.

Kaka felt a pang of pain in her heart as Wu Shuang's words echoed deeply within her. Indeed, back then he had been too afraid to make any promises to Wu Shuang due to the unstable condition at that time; unlike later years when it stabilized and he managed to survive for two whole years on medication, never knowing when death would come knocking. How could he have promised anything

Kaka said, "It was selfish of me. I didn't want to die. That New Year's Eve, when you told me that you liked me, I was both shocked and delighted. At the time, I truly had no mental preparation for it. So I ran away. Firstly, I never expected you to actually say it out loud; secondly, my physical condition allowed me to do so. How could I not wish to live happily with you As long as we can spend a few years together, that would be enough. But back then, Uncle White Night couldn't save me, and I relied on medication to stay alive. If I were to be with you, my heart rate would definitely accelerate, leading to certain death sooner or later. I dare not take the risk. Truly, I don't want to die; I still wish to see you live happily and laugh joyfully. To die so young, even I wouldn’t accept it. I have many unfulfilled wishes left, how could I completely disregard them just for our love Later on, when my condition stabilized, Uncle White Night said that I can live a normal life as long as I am careful and meticulous. Then I thought about being honest with you; I knew you wouldn't leave me even if I became a vegetative state patient. But I couldn’t bear to let you be constantly worried about me every day. You have always cherished freedom the most, what would you do when my body collapses completely Moreover, at that time, I could see that your feelings for Long Chengtian were genuine. I thought perhaps your love towards me might fade gradually and eventually find happiness with another man who replaces me, so I decided not to say anything. In these past dozen years, I have struggled many times within myself, but Wu Shuang... I admit it; in matters of the heart, I am nowhere near as brave as you."

Wu Shuang closed her eyes, hiding the pain from her gaze. Brave She wasn’t at all brave. If she were truly courageous, she wouldn't have acted like this. It was simply because she loved him too much and couldn't bear to see him suffer. Even if he only had one day left to live, she would follow him.

She believed that for her entire life, she could never leave Kaka.

"Now then, what do you want now If you don’t wish to make a decision, then this time I’ll make it. Listen to me," Wu Shuang looked at Kaka with a firm gaze and an aura of queenly authority that was evident in her expression; these words had been brewing inside her for a long time. "Over ten years ago, you made the decision for my sake. Today, you must listen to me; I don’t care about your feelings."and never mentioned Ye Feimo. She sat there in silence all day long without any specific focus.Cheng Anya visited her every day but apart from moving her lips slightly when Cheng came by, RuoNuan did...