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Xiaobai went alone to the courtyard garden to sit, and Chuchu found him there. She sat down beside him with a smile and asked, "Elder Brother Xiaobai, everyone is having fun inside, why are you out here by yourself"

"Just taking some air. What about you" Xiaobai tilted his head to look at her; Chuchu was holding her phone next to him, playing a game. After not seeing each other for some time, Chuchu had matured quite a bit. Even though she still seemed like the happy little girl he knew, there was an evident maturity compared to before.

Speaking of their generation, Chuchu and Zhou Muhan were undoubtedly the luckiest couple. They barely faced any turbulence, growing up as childhood sweethearts, deeply in love, and their relationship progressed smoothly. The only drama they had was a cliché 'third-party' storyline that ended when Chuchu's fierce attitude deterred anyone from trying again. Since then, there have been no storms to rock their boat. Their relationship was very good; it wasn't always the case that one needed to weather storms to see sunshine in love. Sometimes, relationships without tumultuous times could be quite wonderful as well—Chuchu and Zhou Muhan were prime examples of this. They were very happy, very happy indeed.

"Elder Brother Xiaobai, when will your detoxification treatment be over"

"In June." Xiaobai said, "Why do you ask"

"I'm concerned about your health. My dad and mom mentioned they would stay with your parents in Riyadh until you're fully recovered, so I'll be on my own then. That means I can go to London to visit Brother Muhu." Chuchu happily planned out the next six months; Chu Li was rather strict with her as she was his cherished daughter, and even though he approved of Zhou Muhan as a son-in-law, he hoped his daughter would spend more time with them before getting married later. Therefore, Chuchu's life was quite pitiful—half the year spent with Chu Li and Rong Yan, and half with Zhou Muhuan. This time their stay in Riyadh would be for six months, which made Chuchu particularly happy.

Xiaobai lamented, "So my drug addiction is actually a good thing for you"

Chuchu immediately pledged her loyalty to him; Xiaobai suddenly grabbed Chuchu and asked, "Do you think the boss has been avoiding me lately"

"It's impossible. Brother Mo Yue is always obedient to you; he has never rejected you." Chu Chu said, "Brother Little White, don't overthink things."

"I hope so," replied Little White, pursing his lips and remaining silent. The thought that the boss would rather play games than face him left a small sense of discomfort in his heart.

Later on, they planned to have beach barbecue. Su Man asked Daina and others to prepare the grill equipment while Ye Wei and Rong Yan bought barbecue food along with Shen Xi. Although it was late, there was still a barbecue shop open, which Ye Wei cleaned up entirely. Rong Yan even went so far as to bring back a small suckling pig from a hotel. The group headed towards the beach in grand style.

Having many cars was advantageous for Su Man; though they were quite a number of them, there was enough space in the vehicles. Mo Yue and Little White were among the last to leave as Mo Yue had some urgent matters to take care of. As a result, it was late when he arrived. Little White waited for him downstairs in the garden. Mo Bai drove, with Mo Yue seated beside him. Although Little White was an excellent driver, Mo Yue still felt uneasy since Little White had been involved in a car accident before.

He didn't like it when Little White sped; it was too dangerous.

However, since Little White insisted, he could do nothing about it. This sports car was the same one they drove on their previous outing, which Bai Ye gave them as a favor to Little White. During his drive, Little White enjoyed listening to rock music, but the loud beats and tunes made Mo Yue feel uncomfortable so Mo Bai turned down the volume a bit. Only then did Mo Yue start feeling better. The two of them didn't speak much throughout their journey; occasionally, Little White hummed some melodies.

While driving, Little White suddenly felt unwell; he stopped at a traffic light and his body began to uncontrollably twitch. Seeing this, Mo Yue quickly came back to his senses. Little White braked heavily and pulled the sports car off the road. He was hunched over in the driver's seat, clearly in great pain. Mo Yue anxiously asked him what was wrong; all Little White could manage to say was that he felt terrible as sweat dripped from his forehead one drop at a time. His drug addiction had been occurring every four or five days recently and since it happened yesterday, it seemed unlikely for another episode so soon. Mo Yue sternly inquired, "What did you eat just now"

"I drank some ice beer," Little White honestly replied. Mo Yue inwardly cursed him for being reckless; drinking ice beer was strictly forbidden by Bai Ye. It might be the cause of his drug addiction kicking in earlier than usual.

Little White closed his eyes, seemingly trying to fend off something before him with flailing hands. Mo Yue opened the car door and pulled him out from inside, holding onto him tightly as he struggled against the confines of the sports car.

"Don't struggle, it's okay, everything will be fine soon." Mo Yue said. The matter of Mo Xiaobai detoxifying was not allowed to be observed by others because his withdrawal symptoms were terrifying. Recently, he could withstand this pain alone, but after drinking, he didn’t know if it would trigger a reaction. Mo Yue circled around him to prevent him from harming himself. Mo Xiaobai felt uncomfortable and suffocated in his chest; all the strength accumulated in his body had no place to vent. He suffered from severe headaches, with hallucinations floating before his eyes. When he was in prison, unable to endure the side effects of withdrawal, he… Mo Yue and Wu Shuang were sexually tortured because of Mo Xiaobai’s bruises that indicated abuse, but they misunderstood.

The truth was opposite: Little White had forcefully violated them with extremely cruel methods, castrating several people directly. Later on, when his withdrawal symptoms occurred, no one dared to approach him; they only waited for the aftermath to beat and violate him.

Revenge!

To be fair, those special forces soldiers were somewhat wronged because they didn’t know about the side effects of drug addiction. Thus, there was a chaotic scene before everyone figured it out. As for Little White, he had hallucinations and mistook all of them as Mo Yue. Hence, while enduring his withdrawal symptoms, he believed he was torturing Mo Yue, injuring him. He suffered in both reality and illusion.

The special forces soldiers who were accidentally injured by Little White wanted revenge, so they found a group of men who enjoyed this kind of thing to lock them up with Little White. They waited for the moment when Little White was at his weakest after withdrawal symptoms kicked in to allow these men to take their revenge.

The injuries from sexual torture were thus formed; during that period, Little White suffered a lot, maintaining his sanity while enduring the extreme torture of interrogation and fighting back against those scum who tried to harm him. Later on, as hallucinations worsened, no matter what happened, Mo Yue appeared before his eyes; the people he hurt were all Mo Yue in his mind. At that time, Little White considered all those injuries from sexual torture inflicted by others as something done by Mo Yue because he couldn’t distinguish between reality and illusion.

Even so, Mo Xiaobai still felt happy because he had seen Mo Yue; even if Mo Yue was torturing him violently, he thought that just being able to see his brother made everything okay. He felt reassured with his brother by his side, thus he wasn’t clear whether anyone succeeded in violating him.

After all, at that time, those people were all Mo Yue.

The pain and pressure, combined with the drug addiction turning him into a distorted version of himself, even made nightmares from dreams scary. During the period when Mo Xiaobai was recovering his memory, he would have nightmares while hugging Mo Yue at night. If he had a knife in hand and experienced withdrawal symptoms again, he probably would stab it towards someone. If Mo Yue wanted him during his withdrawal phase, he might shoot him dead.

This is the instinct of resistance that Mo Xiaobai honed in prison. Because he couldn't distinguish between reality and illusion, he treated everything as a fabrication. Even if it was Mo Yao kissing him, he would still grab whatever sharp object he could find to pierce through his artery.

He had done this several times; the first time was the most unbearable. He watched as Mo Yao lay motionless on the ground with successful bloodletting and a sharp glass shard stuck in his throat. He nearly broke down, thinking he had killed Mo Yao. Thinking that he had killed the person he loved the most made him want to take his own life, only to suddenly see his brother sneeringly walking over again. Mo Xiaobai would begin protecting himself once more and gradually become numb. Even when he saw Mo Yao bleeding beside him, he no longer felt anything.

He had to numbly tell himself that the person was not his brother but just a phantasmal shadow.

Baiye told him that such hallucinations would haunt him for a long time. He was very worried that he might hurt Mo Yao, and these things he never shared with Mo Yao because he feared that Mo Yao wouldn't be able to accept it, as well as his own inability to cope.

Those nights when he woke up and saw Mo Yao beside him were the most hazy times. His first reaction was to grab whatever he could find to kill Mo Yao. Later, as he slowly came to his senses, realizing that the person was real, he calmed down from killing this urge.

Mo Xiaobai worried that one day he would lose control.

In those moments, he yearned for Mo Yao's embrace and accepted it. To a large extent, it was an attempt to see how much he could accept. Undeniably, when he had an episode, his desire for Mo Yao was intense; this had become habitual. But when he was sober and did things with Mo Yao, it was him trying to get used to these occurrences, as the connection between them would be like this forever. He needed to get accustomed to it so that there wouldn't be any slip-ups resulting in killing Mo Yao. There was a time when someone kissed him while he stabbed him, and at that moment, he had thought it was Mo Yao.

So he feared that such hallucinations could drive one mad sometimes.

Fortunately, he never had an episode.the end of the month, many sisters have been diligently subscribing and gifting me with gold coins. Xiaoxiao really can't thank them enough. Thank you to both new and old readers who have accompanied...